I cant take life right now and i feel the need to do drugs or self harm or commit cusicide please help?

im stuck in these ignorant redneck southern states called north and south carolina and my parents want to move to south carolina which im glad im suppose to be getting out of NORHT carolina but SC is no diffent then north carolina the south is the south and most people dont live in the south i hate the small town southern bible belt feeling i hate the bible thumpers i hate the rednecks who like to judge people on how they dress i hate the racists i hate life their im 17 and please dont say anything like i need to save up and get on my own because i really cant do that right now and my mom is accusing me of mnot taking my medicine just because i told her i honestly dont like hanging around her grandson i want to be my own person im not one of them im not a member of a pack of freaking HILL BILLYS that live in the carolinas. their wanting to move to some beach town. and i cant cope with this anymore i have to keep a million things bottled inside at all times because i cant bare the real world i have to live in an alternitive reality of my own world just so i can keep connected with myself becuase i shouldent even have my name said around any of them because IM NOT ONE OF THEM AND i dont want to even claim her my mom their is NO way to get out of my problem this is impossible the only way is to ( suck it up) alot of people will say but that only makes me one of them and is asspecting to be a part of them and im NOT one of them thats the thing nobody understands i cant just tell my freaking mom i dont like any of her ignorant close minded judgemental family. this is immpossible theirs no way out help? now she wants to rent a condo to look at a house in SC becuase her family is taking a vacation down their