I am a failure with women and I have not had sex in years I hate women, help!!!?

Yeah, women hate me romantically, (just romantically.) I have tried the bar scene, online dating, college, churches,etc., to try and connect with women. Nothing has worked in many years!!! I am 40 now and I wonder if i'll ever be with an attractive woman, again!!. Feel like a virgin, because it has been soooooo long since i have had sex with a great lady/ I have even gotten suicidal over this, researching stuff on bridge jumping. Not going to do that now, but if this continues at 45, see you later world!!!!! A potential lifetime of celibacy scares me... I have made some dumb mistakes with women along the way, some of it my fault (saying and doing dumb stuff in regards to them) and brutal rejection, BRUTAL.. I am beginning to hate women now, but I don't really want to. Yes, I am seeing a therapist now, but it isn't doing much good. I am still a strike out with the ladies (or so it seems, is there hope.) Yes, I tried ugly women and I do not want to go into detail regarding some intimate encounters with them, needless to say they failed miserably. Please, some help,,, I am a good person.. I am not obese, an alcoholic, etc. (SOME OF THEM GET HOT WOMEN.) I am getting to the point where I don't know where to meet them or how to talk to them. This should be the problem of a kid, not a grown man. Give me some good advice and no Bible thumpers or Politically Correct types, Please. Thanks Mike: an attractive, good hearted man. PS not desperate cuz I gave up asking them out. I sleep with my cat now and not a woman, Uma Thurman are you out there...................................…